Repetition

When something repeats numerous times, then there is usually a spiritual message involved somewhere.

In the current case, there have been a lot of requests for assistance from all kinds of people, for all kinds of things. And it seems that these requests are getting more frequent. In the last 24 hours we have had four separate requests from four different people. I have also been visiting my neighbour daily, and helping her, after she broke her leg a fortnight ago. Whilst I am retired and should have plenty of spare time, I find most of my mornings are full, by the time I walk, do my exercises, housework and writing. Then afternoons I have been applying the hay to the garden, and I also like to spend some time writing my poems. There are meals to prepare as well. So my days have been busy.

I have found that my routine has been upended with these other requests, meaning I am not getting my own stuff done. Stephen and I ran out of groceries a while ago, and just finding the time for a town visit has been difficult. This morning, we did go into town, but it was to take my neighbour to her doctor’s appointment and xray and we didn’t want to make her journey any more uncomfortable by doing our stuff. We had just got home when another friend asked us to pick up a freezer for her and deliver it to a destination an hour away, which we will probably do some time this weekend. Plus, I have been asked to do something for someone next Thursday.

Stephen has gone down to help a friend after a further request for help and I have been asked to write a review for a friend’s book. I am already reading another of hers. All these things take time and while I am very happy to be able to help out, it just seems that all the requests are happening at once.

So what is the message here for me? Do I need to set some boundaries? Do I need to stop being so disciplined and lighten up. If I don’t walk or do my writing, does it matter?

Whatever, I do know there is something for me to learn in all this. The other thing that has been occurring with increasing frequency is that people are getting annoyed with me. These are the same people whom I generally have a good exchange of energy with. One example was a phone call yesterday. My friend got quite prickly at one stage. I felt like hanging up. This was their stuff, but I just let her rant, then she came right but left me questioning what that was all about and the others who have behaved in a similar manner.

I know that often what we see in another is just a reflection of what is within ourselves. Are these people just reflecting my own inner anger? And are the requests for help just reflecting my own inner need for help?

I always try to turn things around too. If I was in that person’s situation and I needed help, I would certainly be grateful for it, so then do it.

One of my friends was telling me about some inner child work she had been doing. By chance, being wakeful at 3am, I decided to also do an inner child meditation. This time I was taken to my 11-year-old self and straight away saw reflections about things that had been happening for me – not the requests for help or the anger, but other stuff. I am sure one day, I’ll workout what all the recent goings on are about but for now, I am too busy to really do so.