More wealth blocks

I have been listening to Louise Hay affirmations for a week or so now, sometimes repeating them, at other times listening to the latest one to come up on my feed. This morning I realised that I still have deep-rooted issues around money. We have been told that until we address all of these money-blocking beliefs, then wealth of any magnitude will elude us. This is where my issue lies. Do I in fact want wealth?

I was surprised when I had that realisation this morning – the fact that deep down, there are aspects of wealth I abhor. I associate wealth with greed and with snobbery and with not very nice people. Strange isn’t it, how one makes these connections, when, lets face it, people are people in all walks of life. We have good and bad across the spectrum. But somewhere in my psyche, I have formed the belief that money would make me a bad or non-spiritual person. Can humility and wealth not go hand in hand?

I went in a bit later to explore these beliefs of mine. I saw the Greek or Roman life where I had been extremely wealthy and had vowed to never live like that again. But I have done work on that lifetime and cut the ties to the beliefs I held then and the vows I had made, as I had done so with the nun and monk lives. I had other lives where I was extremely poor, such as the serf life and the lifetime where I was a paralysed male. Again, I had done work around these lifetimes. Then my Indian life came into my awareness and it is here that I realise my beliefs around wealth lie.

I have always been heavily influenced by the Indian chief. He has been my main guide throughout my life. I know we are the sum of all the people we have once been but some, more so than others. The key to life is finding happiness within. It doesn’t live in external things, such as expensive cars or houses, rather, in our hearts and it is the little things that bring us the most joy, such as the singing of the birds or the radiant colour of the flowers around us. I don’t know about the values the Native American Indians hold today but I do know the Indian I was, valued simplicity.

So, I can see I have a dilemma and until I resolve this, wealth of any magnitude will never enter my existence. I would have to want it with every cell of my being and I know, that deep down, I don’t. I am happy, I have enough to get by, to pay the bills. Good book sales would equate to wealth and whilst I yearn for these, I am at the same time stopping them by my deep-seated beliefs. Somehow, I am going to have to come to the realisation that it is ok to have money and even to be wealthy. I do know I would like some concreting around the side of the house. And a few holidays would be nice. Perhaps I will have to start in small increments - a little bit of concreting and a small holiday – and go from there.