Annoying

This is the first time I have written anything negative about Stephen. He can be so annoying at times, which usually, I find endearing. However, sometimes, I don’t, this morning being a classic example.

Being woken up, I can live with and usually bite my tongue, but this morning I seemed to be constantly asleep, awake, asleep in between his annoying talking, lifting up the blind, more talking. I didn’t say anything but later I was doing the vacuuming, a super loud machine and I hear him yelling for me, almost screaming from the other room. I had to turn the vacuum cleaner off to see what was so important. Did I want him to bring the other vacuum cleaner up for the spiders’ webs? It annoyed me that he couldn’t get off his chair to ask me the question, rather, I had to stop what I was doing to see what his problem was. I went back to my job and afterwards brought in the bucket to fill with hot water to wash the lino floor. When he put the mat I had just lifted back down, I got annoyed again.  

Now it transpires, I have a problem, what is wrong with me this morning? After explaining how annoying it was to have to stop what I was doing and go over to see what he was yelling about, when he could have just left his armchair and walked over to me, I was told ‘’so’’. He could not see my point of view at all. Those weren’t the only annoying things I had to contend with this morning either, where I didn’t say a word. Come in after he’s been shaving, turn his light off, put away his shaving gear, put the butter back into the fridge, tie up the bread bag, just to name a few. Usually I just let things go, but occasionally, such as this morning, I get annoyed myself. I guess, probably because I had way less sleep than I needed, when normally I would have just let things slip over my head.

He genuinely can’t see why I was pissed off with the vacuum cleaner episode. My solution for such things as this is to do the same thing to him. In this case, I will wait until he is busy doing something, then I shall yell for him to come over while I ask him a question. It sounds malicious, but really, I find it the only way sometimes, for him to see my point of view. He didn’t have kids, so much of his behaviour, he is unaware of the effects on other people.

He wakes me up frequently in the mornings, only to go back to sleep himself. He has no trouble doing this, whereas once I am awake, I am awake. If he had had annoying kids coming into his room through the night he would probably know how this feels. I don’t ever wake him when I know he is sleeping….perhaps I should, just to tell him I am awake.

Rant over. Now I am contemplating whether to post this or not. Stephen is a lovely man and I feel so blessed to have him in my life. He has so many positive qualities that little annoyances like these really don’t even enter into the scheme of things. And he does the vacuuming and other household chores as much as I do and had even told me that he would finish the vacuum cleaning after he had eaten this morning. I should have just left him to it.

I guess I just needed this little bit of time to let off steam. And now I am back to my normal self. And those little annoyances, such as yelling for me when I am doing a job will no longer bother me.