Ancestral healing

In one of my chapters in The Collective Us, I examine the correlation between the issues that I have inherited and those that have come with me from my previous lives. I find that many are the same, while some are from my past lives only. At the time of writing that book, I had done very little ancestral healing, instead, concentrating on healing the past life issues, knowing that by doing this I was also healing the ancestral ones that were common to both. I was doing a meditation last week, looking at something that had been dogging me. As I was doing the meditation, and trying to find the root of the problem, I was shown that the issue was not mine. The root was not in my lifetime, nor was it from my past lives, even though similar examples existed. In this particular case, the root was from my ancestral side. I thought of both sets of parents and their parents and grandparents and remembered a similar example of the issue I was looking at, had occurred in both sides of the family. I tried to look at both, but spirit had other plans, zeroing me in on my mother’s line, whilst at the same time, completely blocking out my father’s. The clear message was that there was only one person I needed to look at and that was my great-grandfather, Cedric. I was taken to an instance in his life that I knew about, that had caused the family immense shame. Some years ago, I forgave Cedric and knew at the time, I had healed the ancestral trauma of shame. But there was obviously more work to do, for I wouldn’t have been taken there otherwise. Suddenly, I realised I was viewing Cedric’s life before the event that had caused the shame. That’s where I saw the correlation to my own issue, which was almost identical to his and also to ones from my previous lives. I offered Cedric love, healing, forgiveness and acceptance, but even with all of this I could not get the release I was after. I tried several guided, healing ancestral meditations off the internet but to this point, know I have not yet dissolved the block. A lot of questions have come to mind. Why is Cedric the only person in my ancestors that has needed healing in this way? When I think of other issues from my other forbearers, I don’t get that emotional charge as I do with this man and his issues. At the time I carried out Cedric’s shame-healing, I did wonder if I could have been him and this thought has again entered my head. Could I have been my great-grandfather or have I just chosen Cedric’s issues over those of all other ancestors to heal in this lifetime? Was that part of my soul contract, that I would take on that part of my genetic past for healing and no others? I mentioned earlier, I know when I have healed a past life issue that is common to the ancestral line, that I have cleared both, yet none of these others in my ancestral line have had the emotional charge as Cedric’s has. I am reluctant to claim Cedric as one of my former lives but until I can definitively say otherwise, I will have to keep that option open…and do more work so I can clear the issue once and for all.