Past and present
I have often talked about how our former lives influence our current one. Much of what we choose to work on in our current lives is first introduced to us in childhood. This usually starts with some kind of issue, which repeats, becoming our pattern, until we heal it and ultimately the past life pattern as well. Once we do so, the issue then ceases.
I was in meditation yesterday morning, having chosen one to show the correlation between questions we have about our current life and how our previous lives have played a part. We were meant to examine one aspect, but I chose to do three and annoyingly I can’t remember what the other two were now, except that I understood perfectly at the time, how the three lives I was shown, connected the three issues I was asking about. However, I will share what I can remember.
The three lives I was shown were my North American Indian life, my Medieval life and the life I lived as a paraplegic. In my North American life, our tribe was moved to a reservation, preventing us from hunting the animals as we had done in the past. This move caused periods of starvation. It was thus feast or famine. In the Medieval life, I was jailed by a man (king) who was jealous of my life and thought, that by imprisoning me and taking my wife, he would have the same kind of life as I had had. The third life, as a paraplegic, I had to rely on those around me for my basic requirements of food and water, once again, creating a feast or famine situation, though I am sure the feast could have been as meagre as having a slice of bread thrown my way.
One is probably already working out that it was something to do with my eating that I questioned in this meditation and that is correct. I think I asked if there were anymore blocks in this area that I hadn’t worked on. I had not seen the Medieval life in this light before, instead, having only worked on the feelings of having the one I loved taken from me. However, I now saw, that whilst I was jailed, I would have only had the food given to me to eat and I saw how this had created a longing for the type of food I had when free. Perhaps I dreamt so much about a particular food that I vowed, that when freed, I would eat that food forever, or whatever. The paraplegic life is obvious. I think I was in a continuous state of hunger and perhaps made the same kind of vow. The Indian life I had worked on before but I see now that at some stage, I have to go into meditation again and remove any vows around food. I see throughout my life I have recreated the feast or famine situation – dieting then bingeing and I also saw how I have done this to heal those unhealed aspects from those former lives.
The other thing I do remember from this meditation is the feelings of missing out I have had over the years, starting of course, from childhood, when I was prevented from doing certain things because I was a girl. Those missed occurrences have held so much power. One of them, was helping dock the lambs, not considered a suitable place for a young girl. In the following years I helped with docking heaps of times. It was a hard job. I saw how the thing I remembered so strongly from childhood was missing out, not all the other times I did help dock the lambs. This was shown to me in the Medieval life and I saw the bigger picture. I had been so hung up, while in jail, about what I was missing out on. But seeing the bigger picture I saw that life wasn’t exciting for my wife or the king. Neither of them were happy so really, what I was so upset about probably wasn’t even real. I can see how both the paraplegic and Indian life could have created the same feelings and these are what I need to let go of.
When I put this meditation on, I felt that I wouldn’t get anything from it as I have done so much work around my past lives and healing the issues connected with them. However, I see there is more and as long as I have issues in my current life, then I will probably have more healing to do in my past.