Goat

I put on a meditation a couple of days ago, when I found myself wide awake at 4.30am. The reason for waking at that hour was because I had crawled into bed at 8pm and slept soundly. One can never go wrong with an abundance meditation, I thought, and the one that jumped out at me was one for past life blockages to abundance. Of course, over the years I have carried out quite significant work on my past lives and their impact on my current life, which has included cutting vows where appropriate.

I was more curious than anything as to what life might show up that might still be impacting me in this area of my life and was surprised when my early South African life appeared. In that life, I was healing/treating people for their ailments, which irked the resident witch doctor when more people started coming to me than to him. Incensed, he had me boiled alive in a pot. I suppose he had plans to eat my brains or some other atrocity. I had had a further life with this witch doctor, where he was female and I ended up being burnt to death at the stake after my wife found out about an affair I was having with her, and notified the authorities about some other activity I was involved in.

I met both of these people at a job I had some years ago. My former wife was still seeking revenge and set this man up so that he resigned from his job. She tried hard to discredit me, but with a history of causing trouble, was not successful.

As I viewed myself, once again, trussed up in the hot pot as the temperature became increasingly unbearable, I wondered just how this life was affecting my abundance.

I was given a new image and I saw myself, alone in a round, shaded hut. I could see I was a tall, slim man, which incidentally, was the same physique I had had in the second life I had shared with this witch doctor. I was sitting cross-legged, then I watched myself rise to my feet. I was given a further image and that was of a goat. I suppose an animal such as this would have been a symbol of wealth and perhaps the spark of the witch doctor’s jealousy.

For years, I have hidden my spiritual side fiercely away, though I must say I have finally overcome those fears, generated from all the lifetimes where I was put to death, because of my spirituality. These images I had just been given, were hinting that there was also a fear around wealth. I knew clearly about my spiritual fears but hadn’t associated the spiritual and the wealth together. The goat seemed incredibly significant, and perhaps had I not had the goat, my life may have been spared. I could see now, that at the time of my death, I had believed that I was being burnt for the wealth my healing had accumulated (the goat), rather than the actual healing itself. That was what had made the witch doctor jealous.

The meditation continued and I was shown one of my other earlier, healer lives, where I was very happy and comfortable with my healing (sometime around the coming of Jesus) and then the recently discovered life where I was an incredibly wealthy Roman or Greek and had vowed never to live like that again, due to my abhorrent behaviour.

The meditation ended shortly after that, but I can see I will need to do more work, perhaps on my beliefs that would have been generated from that African life, something along the lines of: it is safe to receive payment for my services.