Dreams

I seldom remember my dreams yet the last few days I seem to be waking midway through them and thus having some recall.

I wrote in the Full moon combo blog about a childhood healing I had and that seems to have opened the way for my sleeping mind to process some of the later events in my life. In the past, the majority of the dreams I did remember were old-fashioned and set well in the past. With the healing the other day, I felt all the hurts I had carried since that period, dissolve. Now my dreams are more modern and have people that I know in them, rather than strangers, like I have skipped my early childhood and am now more in the present.

Several years ago, I worked in a small team with two people I had shared past lives with. I knew we were playing out the past in our current life, as I got several images of the previous lives at that time.

The result of our time together was that one of these two people handed in her notice to quit her job, citing the behaviour of the other, as the reason for doing so. The other, who was an honourable man, decided to resign as well, knowing an investigation would be carried out against him. The latter left immediately, while the other stayed on for a further month or two.

It was the male that I dreamt about last night. I had been thinking about him a few days ago. I thought it would be good to catch up to discuss that period in our lives. I always felt he had been set up and unfairly blamed but he left that day and thus there was no further discussion about the events that unfolded.

In my dream, I realised he was one of the men staying where I was staying so I decided to approach him, asking if he’d like to talk. His response was a definitive ‘’no’’ but as I left the room, a leading question came back to me, indicating he was interested in what I had to say. I started talking to him, but we were joined by others, so the conversation was left incomplete. Then I woke up.

I wrote about this period of my life in Who Is Me? Feather 21, page 108. After I started that job, snippets from a life that we all shared started coming through. I realised I had been a male and having an affair with a woman whom I didn’t regard very highly. It was her who was my current boss. The other woman in the office was my wife in that lifetime. She had become aware of the affair and notified the authorities about something I had been writing, which subsequently had me arrested and burnt at the stake.

So now the three of us were working together in this new job. As I mentioned, the boss was often angry, but the fellow worker was a manipulative woman. She told me once that she just wanted to get her revenge on him. I knew this was more than about the anger he was displaying, rather, about the affair from the past life. I had already paid my dues by being burnt at the stake, but I guess the woman had got off without any recrimination. One day, when the boss had been angry, my fellow-worker went around all the workers in an adjacent office and then to the bigger boss, citing she was about to resign because of him. That’s when he stepped in with his own resignation, which I always felt was unfair. She had carried out a lot unethical behaviour when the three of us worked together. I could see what she had been doing, but as I say, he left that day. I was never questioned about my views on the matter. And this was not the first person she had tried to get fired. She had done the same to a previous boss, but had been unsuccessful in her attempt. Whilst I didn’t like the boss that much myself, he had always displayed integrity and did not deserve that.

As I mentioned above, it was some days ago that I had been thinking of this old boss of mine. I really would like to sit down with him and discuss that period, but I guess my subconscious mind has got in ahead of me, giving me that dream scenario last night. And maybe, if I say what I want to say in my dreams, then I may not feel the need to talk with him.

I do wonder sometimes when we dream of someone, are they actually there with us in the dreams? Do they have the awareness that we have been dreaming about them? This is one area where I really don’t know that much about. Perhaps one day I will catch up with him and he will tell me he has been thinking of that time in his life too.