Crossroads
I was at a crossroads yesterday morning when I woke up. There just seemed to have been an avalanche of negativity, that although not directed at me, was impacting just the same.
I think sometimes we need a reset.
Everything I seemed to watch was attacking the very principles of my core. That is, the spiritual aspects that define my deepest beliefs.
I was watching a very good criminal profiler, who is fantastic at her job and the podcasts she produces. However, my opinion of her changed when she began attacking psychics. Her words added to the layer of criticisms I have heard recently denying much of what is my truth. And it started making me question my own beliefs. Maybe I have been wrong all along. Maybe all these other people are right.
I heard another high-profile TV personality denouncing coincidences. "I don't believe in them," he said emphatically.
And there was a woman who questioned my God, somehow inferring that it was a lesser version of the God she knew or not the real one, and closer to home, another person who said they didn't believe much of what I talked about. My interpretation of the latter was that this person couldn't accept me, as my beliefs are what make me.
It just seemed to be one thing after another, in my face. So, I found myself lying awake in the middle of the night and praying. "Please give me a sign to let me know if I am wrong about everything I believe...or not’’.
I recognized the sign almost immediately. It was the same incident I wrote about in yesterday's blog. The announcer was talking about the Elton John concert in 1974. I was at that concert and it reminded me of my father who had died three months prior. It brought his memory back so clearly. This was my sign. My father was psychic. Of course, my beliefs are real. That was the reset and the sign that I needed.
I think sometimes it is positive to question our beliefs, for when we do so, we either alter them or reinforce them. In this case, it has brought them back stronger than ever. I needed that. I have had many lifetimes of criticism for my spiritual beliefs. It seems almost that I have been born a lifetime ahead of myself with each incarnation. It has been hard. But I know my truth and I feel the reinforcement of this truth in the connection to my father through yesterday's sign. And while there are still so many people out there who don’t believe in past lives, I know that their beliefs will change once they reach the other side. I just have to continue to be strong.