Body belief workshop

I attended the body belief workshop yesterday and although not clear on everything we learnt, I do know that I am pleased I went. It is great to recognise beliefs we hold and to pull these apart – to ask ourselves if these are actually true. And then to turn them around. For example, my belief, my body is too fat, turned into, my thoughts about my body are too fat. Gosh, there are a lot of these thoughts about my body, these are the things that are too fat. The concept behind this teaching is that thoughts play a large role in our circumstances. By continually telling myself I am too fat, guess what, the body complies.

In the afternoon segment of the session, we were taken through a hypnosis to endeavour to get to the route of our self-image problems. This was in three parts but I can only remember the third and that was the feeling of not deserving. The fat my body holds acts as a punishment for my perceived misdemeanours. I was continually told, as a child, that I didn’t deserve this or that and cakes were often rewards for periods of outbursts with my mother – probably two separate things going on here but I saw the fat punishment clearly. I used to believe, and probably still do, that if I got angry as a child, I was bad and I see now how bad needed to be punished. The fat does that well. It just reinforces that I am bad, non-deserving and all the rest that goes with it. It is interesting pulling all these beliefs apart. As I explained at the beginning of the session, I have done a tremendous amount of work on myself, just not that much around my eating.

I have asked for a one-on-one session to tackle another issue, this time, one that I have done a lot of work on, but been unable to clear, but I am feeling that perhaps more work with the eating would be a good idea too.

I think I preferred the hypnosis of the two methods taught yesterday, because in all of my self-work, I like to get at the root of the cause as I know that once this is healed then the issue ceases to exist.

Wouldn’t it be lovely to have a good relationship with food, to be able to have one biscuit and not the whole packet or even better, not to even want a biscuit.

I know timing is always perfect and I do feel this course has come into my life at the perfect time. I have been working on removing trapped traumas from my body and now that these are gone, the body is pleading that I start treating it with more respect.

I have turned a deaf ear my whole life. It is time to start listening.