Reactions are never about now
‘Nothing is ever about now’ has been one of my catch-phrases for a very long time. More precisely, our reactions are never about now. When we react to something in any kind of way, there is always an earlier trigger, generally from childhood. I saw this time and again with my healing work, both on myself and with clients, particularly with the journey-type work I used to do. This involved starting with the presenting emotion, dropping through that to the one below it and continuing, until one reached the space of peace, love or freedom. Along the way, a childhood memory would appear and this was worked on to complete the healing. Clients often exclaimed to me how they had never connected what was going on in their current life with their earlier trauma, which once healed, meant there was no more reaction in the present day.
For those who have never undertaken any personal healing, this is a hard concept to get one’s head around, but for those like me, who have worked on themselves or on others, we see it time and again. Once we start the self-healing journey, we realise just how much work there is to do.
Yesterday, I had one of these triggers. An innocent remark was made to me, and unbeknownst to that person, the exact same words had been spoken to me by a teacher when I was 14. The earlier words had devastated me at the time and hearing them again, brought all the earlier emotions back. When I awoke at 3.30 this morning, I decided to repeat the meditation I had only carried out a week ago (see Quiver Full of Arrows blog), which was one to remove trapped trauma from the body. Last week’s effort had seen me removing a number of past hurts, and I knew, from the fact I had reacted yesterday, that there were probably more. Sure enough, when I went in, I saw how I had held even more hurts and also humiliation from that school incident, as the comment had been made in class, in front of all the other students. I saw there were earlier hurts, and removed these as well. I don’t feel I have entirely healed this situation, but the meditation suggests that one repeat it until one feels the trauma has totally gone. One can only remove what the body is ready to let go of, and the fact this incident occurred yesterday, showed me the body was still holding hurts. Perhaps it would have been too much to remove all of these during last week’s meditation.
As I pointed out in both of my books, when we heal an issue, it doesn’t repeat. Generally, our patterns have occurred in many lifetimes before us and will continue repeating until we do something about them. And once we heal our issues, our lives become far more peaceful as we react to less and less situations around us.
I am looking forward to having yesterday’s trigger totally removed.